By Crystal Lindell, Columnist
I want to have a funeral for my health. I want to go abroad and throw its ashes into the sea while wearing a beautiful black dress and Jackie O sunglasses to hide my tear-stained eyes.
I want to take a week off work and forget to shower while everyone brings me casseroles. And I want all of my friends and family to acknowledge what I’ve lost with slideshows and poorly written eulogies that succeed in making everyone cry.
I want to drink too much wine in a vain attempt to numb the pain, and maybe even take up smoking and a few bad men.
I want to sit around with lipstick stained coffee cups late at night telling stories about how amazing it was — my health.
How it let me lead so many youths on mission trips to far-off places. How it let me fall in love so many times. How it let me shower without pain, lured me into believing I would be immortal, and how it allowed me to travel the world.
I want to take all the time I need to figure out how the hell I’m going to live the rest of my life without it. How I will find love, be independent, and survive all of my physical limitations.
And I want the planet to just stop turning for one second while I catch my breath and adjust to the fact that world is a different place than it was.
The obituary would read as follows:
Crystal Sue Lindell’s health died after a 5-year long battle with her body. Her health was 34.
News about the loss came via email from her doctor when he confirmed her worst fears: She likely had hypermobile Ehlers Danlos syndrome (EDS) -- a diagnosis that meant that she would not only never get better, she would likely continue to get worse.
Her health is survived by her body, which will, unfortunately, carry on, in immense pain, despite the loss.
There is no cure for EDS, and as such, her health is completely dead.
She looks forward to seeing her beautiful health again one day in the afterlife, where she hopes it will be waiting for her among the stars.
In lieu of flowers, Crystal asks that donations be made to EDS Awareness, a non-profit online resource for the EDS community.
Crystal Lindell is a journalist who lives in Illinois. She eats too much Taco Bell, drinks too much espresso, and spends too much time looking for the perfect pink lipstick. She has hypermobile EDS.
Crystal writes about it on her blog, “The Only Certainty is Bad Grammar.”
The information in this column should not be considered as professional medical advice, diagnosis or treatment. It is for informational purposes only and represent the author’s opinions alone. It does not inherently express or reflect the views, opinions and/or positions of Pain News Network.